I don't know when it happened, but sometime recently my self-consciousness about my 'open heart surgery' scar showing on above the top button of my shirt is GONE! The scar is still there - as vividly red as ever. But the self-consciousness is gone. No more tugging, pulling, trying to cover it. No more turning sideways just a little bit when I talk to someone so the light doesn't catch it straight on. And, no more concern that when I talk with someone, their eyes float downward, rather than staying on my face. Ahh. It's so much more relaxing this way.
It's interesting too - Now my thoughts don't go in that 'worry' direction, the scar itself doesn't seem to be noticed. It's quite interesting to me how my own 'worry thoughts' seemed to draw from others the very things I was worried about. My, but we are more powerful as beings than we ever would have thought.
Thing is, I knew this principle as head knowledge. And I've even taught it to others. And, I've used it myself in so many other situations. But not this one. I guess it doesn't really matter WHAT we know, but When/How we apply it. This was a learning experience for me, just because it was a totally different situation than I'd every had before. Kinda cool.
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